Two Years Since the Speech
Today, it is 2 years since I got the speech “I’m not happy, I haven’t been happy for over 6 months and I don’t love you anymore.” Two days later, he was gone – moved into a motel for a few weeks then rented a house. We had been together for 20 years and had 3 children.
There is lots of debate on this site about whether there is another woman involved in MLC – I truly believe he did not have another woman when he left. He told me on a number of occasions that there was no-one else involved, and I know him well enough to know when he was lying.
Of course, now he is living with another woman that he met 9 months after we split. The ironic thing is that she has 2 children that he is now raising – I’ll never understand how they can swap one family for another.
Never mind, my reason for coming on here today is for all the newbies, who like me 2 years ago, searched for information to help explain their spouses’ actions and found this site.
I never thought that I would survive, I didn’t believe that life could get better. But I did survive and slowly, slowly, life has gotten better. To the point now where I am indifferent to my ex’s actions and words. The opposite of love is not hate, it’s indifference and it’s great to be at a point in my life where what he thinks of me doesn’t matter anymore to me.
I basically followed all the information presented on here – tried to detach, set up routines for the children, found a good lawyer, started counselling (and after 2 years, am still visiting my therapist once a week – it has been an absolute life-saver for me).
There are still things my ex does that upset me. But, I have learned that I cannot change him, I have to accept what he does, and it is best to accept it without animosity or anger. Both those emotions do no good.
Some people say after a marriage break-up that “it was the best thing that ever happened to them.” Even though I have done a lot of work on myself, I don’t think I’ll ever reach a position where I will be able to say that. After 2 years I would not want my ex back now. My nephew was visiting yesterday and his umprompted comment regarding my ex was “he is emotionally incompetent!” I really liked that!
So for all you newbies, use this site. Take the information that’s relevant, post often even if it is just to rant. It’s a great outlet for all sorts of emotions and there is always someone who understands what you are going through.
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